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update fail. :(

2010-03-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hello Readers, i updated yesterday! but...

UPDATE FREAKING FAILED. :(

lol. anyway, the picture above is so awesome right. haha.

i tped so much yesterday :( grr. Anyways, had sports day today.

Wow, our staying back to polishup/learn the cheers paid off. WE WON! :D ole man.

I think i'm falling ill :'( like, feeling feverish, headaches. i think it owes to the many scp meetings plus training everyday D:

I finally broke my personalbest! > 96.25% woots.

HAPPY LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT. (that was so yesterday.) HA HA.

@movingbackwardz. Hmm, TemasekGrandCarnival was an awesome success. Well, the process was (: Knew onesix. Although i was ic of onefivee. haha. And we became awesome friends which resulted in the picture aboveabove. :D moving even more backwards, was sli. HAHA. IM OFFICIALLY A SPORTS CAPTAIN. :)

T-E-M-A-S-E-K. LOL. :D

celebrated Grandma's birthday yesterday. She lost all of her hair due to chemo. Why must good people in thw world face things like that. Seems like i should spend more time with her.

Ah :'(

During holidays, i spent every morning, training. like, 6plus at sch. 7am prep for shoot. rawr.

Final notes. I want to find my life back. I want to go out.(but have no one to) I want my social life in sec one. Everyday's carefree. But looks like sec two's TOTALLY diff.

Date me out :'(

HAHA. keep the tags going.

love, belle.

saddddddddddddddd.

2010-02-28T06:36:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-24T03:09:00.000-08:00

I remember years ago, Someone told me I should take,
Caution when it comes to love.I did.
My illusion, my mistake.
I was careless, I forgot
and now when all is done.
>There is nothing to say.
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I feel so sad. sadness is filling me, uprighttothebrim.
someone wise once told me: some one who truely loves you will never make you cry.
I really hate you. really.
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Temasek grand carnival is coming. Everyone please come. Xcountry's first.
gonna do the halfway mark at the esplanade there. hope i wont see anyone i know. lol.
talked to bryan tay on the phone yesterday. He likes the book to forget you. its awesome. im surprised he read finish the book. lol. i got to start doing birthday presents! D: i still owe yanfeng from last year! sorry yanfeng. haha.
Super stressed! tests are rolling in. then events pile up. troubles crumble upon me.
And you so happen to jump on the heap above me.
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Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts,
I know. ):

>._.

2010-02-19T04:22:00.001-08:00

Cause everything you do and words you say,

you know that it all takes my breath away.

Gosh. School has been real shagged for me. Carnival, xcountry.

Today in sch, was so tired in the morning. Heard Dad and mum's conver last night. He doesnt want me to go for tution. I want tuition. omg. hope he'll let me. grrr. dont know why i felt so upset over it and cried abit, and i fell asleepzxc.

Then mum fetched me to sch. on the way, she told me abt going to my dad for help and blahz. we started to raise our voice and all. then i teared abit again.

IM-SUCHA-LOUSY-EMOTIONAL-WRECKZXC.

Reached school, my tear stained face felt better. Then yeah.

>When whatever turns into random rantszxc.

Zalifah told me some stuff about a girl i thought was nice. grr. spells with capital L. O;

SUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

then after sch had science two test. IM SO SCREWWWEDD.

nevermind, ill try harder. I promise.

Today was such a lousy 19th of Feb. I hate today.

VALENTINE"S EVE.

2010-02-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPYVALENTINE'SDAY.♥

Before i continue, this post's for CalebTZL. Im so sry to miss your birthday, so yeah, happy belated :D

Guys drink to forget about girls. Girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive. Girls can forgive but can’t forget. Guys break up when they feel love from another girl. Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man. Guys feel curiosity towards all girls. Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them. When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy. But finally, guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.
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AWESOMEE,

Annabel. :)

2010-02-06T05:26:00.000-08:00

Dont forget, just dont remember.

-How do you expect me to forget you, when every single molecule reminds me of you?

Hello readers. Omg, my whole body's aching from yesterday's 100,000secs of pumping position.

Pe was so shingz. lalala. haha.

Hmmm, what wakes people up from a deep slumber? For today, it was my parents' quarrels.

I couldn't believe it kept happening. But after awhile, i got used to it. Numbed.

I tried to sleep it away. But i was just afraid their quarrel might just somehow be aimed at the

kids. It's so weird that im having these thoughts. I wanted to tell someone, somebody. but i figured out, i only have my self.

After everything, they can just continue with everything, as if nothing had happened. I felt so.... disgusted? like, after all the shoutings, screaming crying, a doorbell can let everything ressume.

Wth. Somehow, it just has this dent upon me. it was alr, so not new to me. that i could predict what he was going to say, and how she was going to react.

I did maths, simplify algebraic fractions. it was kinda easy at first. but my moods were like real down, i couldnt concentrate. They seemed like numbers so entangled. I tried to solve thenm at

my best ability. Then, i went to sleep. i felt so exhausted, although i had just awoken from a sleep. When i woke up, i received:MESSAGES(5). i hope i'll be okay.

i'll be okay.

Finding him real, and waiting upon.

Annabel.

2010-02-05T00:36:00.000-08:00

[ALL EDITS BY MEE.] :D AWESOME RIGHT. i know :)

Hello Readers, (: ahahaa.

hmmm, so I've been quite stressed lately. (after that streaming talkk.)
its like, gawh D; lol.
but, yeah. Got alot of homewk coming but im still coping okay :) well, i guess.
To forget you by lowkayhwa's really awesome.
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Back in school. erm, im still as hyperr. but i kinda died down alittle i think.
haha. IWANTGOOUT ):

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Calender:
1. Testtestest, ):
2.Valentine's. omg, i want presents under my table :D
3. CNY :)
4.CalebTan's birthday. ._.
5.HTNS shoot. sianzxc.
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ANNABELBELBELLECRAZYHYPERRDINGDONG> lol :DDDDD

(:

2010-02-02T17:32:00.001-08:00

COM LAB

updateeee.

2010-01-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

Recently, );

hello people. i dont know what to talk about. haha. pictures do the talkig ;DD. lol.

hmmm, i'm only going to be attached when im in jc.

picturs convinced me ;)

blahblahhh.

2010-01-08T23:39:00.000-08:00

hello readers,
okay, the previous post was just a sudden inspiration-like thing. dont take it seriously. haha.
I'm serious. (:
haha. anyway, alot of things happened this week. hmmm,
1. ALOTAlotalot of Scp meetings.
2. Sec one orientation.
3. Shermaine's birthday,
4.JunHeng's birthday.

I haven't completed homewk O:

not meant too.

2009-12-31T20:51:00.000-08:00

Love; It can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life.
Yet, why are we always taking the risk, and plunge even further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow?
Maybe that’s the power of love: I will be contented, even with two hours of tears alone, just for that one second of kiss with you.

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To forget you: That is the most impossible thing to do.
To forget is just an interpretation. An immeasurable love’s memories can never be wiped off. Time doesn’t devour memories: It just slowly, painfully converts them into fragments of a dream. Occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream and the dream will alter into a memory again.

He has the looks of a guy that every girl would probably dream to have. He has a warm smile that would probably melt every girl's heart. He is a guy, which every girl would probably want to be able to hug, kiss and say, He's my boyfriend. He has a dark past. Maybe it's still a part of him. It's a scary but yet unbelieveable past. I think i might be falling for him. But i cant, and i wont.

If you are reading this, you are that guy. He is LTP_.

updatezxc.

2009-12-31T19:53:00.000-08:00

♥Rachel's thirteen birthday!

@marina barage.
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hello Readers! omgomg. super long never update. haha. IM SRY ):

hahaa. Anyways, i'll just update randomly. haha. Actually these picture can be seen on facebook. But for the benefit of those whoread my blog, didn't add me on facebook, lazy to browse through my pictures blahblah, i'll shall update here. :D haha.

Hmmmm, so Rachel's birthday was on the 19th Dec. Ruth, Gracxe, Vanessa and Me gave her a surprise. it was rally awesome. haha. so, we reached Marina South Mrt? haha. forgot. Then we proceeded to marina barrage. We didn't know like, how to get there. So Rachel, Ruth and i took a cab. Grace and Vanessa said they wanted to walk there. Haha. so we cabbed half way. then saw grace and vanessa like, still at the bus stop. haha. In th end, they hopped in. HAHA. Then the taxi uncle got the route wrong and yeah. but we reached marina barage in the end of course :D

Blindfolded Rachel, ruth and grace went up to prepare. The heat was practically melting me away. fastforwardddd.

Vanessa and i escorted rachel up. POOF. Surprise! aha. (i bet she was super touched.)

hmmm, so after that, we went to bugis and then to church for choir.

I really fastforwarddded the whole thing. it was really awesome. check out the pictures on facebook.

♥, Annabel.

Freed,

2009-12-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

-Dylan and Annabel (:

-Rachel and Annabel (:

-Esther, Annabel and Elijah ,(:

-Ruth and meeee! :D

Hello Readers! it's been so long since i updated. The pictures are not placed in any order, it's at youthconference, AWESOMEEE. Before that had sports capt camp. That was awesome too ;P

Holidays has been not holiday for me so farrr. Homewk stilll not really completed, ):

but i hope, yeah well, i dont really know what i'm saying. hahahaaaa.

And, im single.
soyeah.

hahaha.

CIAOS.

Replayy.

2009-11-24T06:51:00.001-08:00

To Forget You , ♥

Hello Readers, haha.

24thNov09, Today, i was so boredd. i ended up camwhore-ing. haha, omgomg. i dont really zilian yknow, that shows how bored i was :D haha. Seriously.

Anyway, i dont know if the self pictures came out great or bad , :x haha. do leave comments though :)

so, my library books were dued by a day. ): uhoh, mummy's gonna scold me manszxc. haha. i was watching dramaserials on Miotv. BOREDD TO THE CORE. D:

23rdNov09,Yesterday, went for AFIDconference to be a usher. Got loads of photos. it was really fun. Woke up at 5. reached orchard mrt at 6.50am. omg, we were late. Then ushered and all. Michelle and i were in charge of the Korea booth. She was really a Great help. The koreans were like, talking to her and all. Andand, thanks to her, the Korea Delegates were settled. I was EXHAUSTED in the end. haha. Got to know Naiim and Thhadeus. Nice friends (:

21stNov09, had TemasekOpenHouse. haha. was quite fun, talked to alot of parents. Saw jiezhi at the drink stall. Haha. 200plus people tried shooting siaa. (: afetr that, Visited BodyWorlds :D it's superrr interesting i tell you. Anyone wanna go, call meee! (: i want to go again sia. haha. it's really quite nicee. then, visited ahgong awhile. He's dying, haish. After that, went for steam ship at church. STEAMBOAT + FELLOWSHIP. (: haha. lol. was fun. pourred out some stuffs to shiyun, and ruth really was a great support to me .

-LOVE YOU RUTH :D ♥

UpcomingEvents:

1. SportsCaptCamp. (30thNov-3rd Dec)

2.SafraShoot.(29thNov@SafraYishun.)

3.YouthConference.(6thDec-11thDec.)

4. Christmas concert (: ( 22nd and 23rd Dec.)

5. DADDY's Birthday. (28thNov.)

BAIBAI!♥,

ANNA-BEL.

jellyszxc-inc

2009-11-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

http://jellyszxc-inc.blogspot.com/

just a word.

2009-11-20T07:26:00.001-08:00

♥-Times that'll last us forever.
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Today(dated:20thNovember2009.) went to visit grandpa at hospital. the doctor and my mum said that he might leave anyime. It's real saddd. Not muc memories with him. People only learn to cherish once it's gone. ): He was really kinda weak. My brother had HonoursDay. He got full colours or badminton, i only got halfColours for shooting. hha. Unfairrrrrr. :D Anyway, saw TeddyTay and his family while having refreshments at ACSBarkerRoad. He came up to me and said hi. HE LOOKED LIKE HIS BROTHERRRRR. HAHA. OMGOMG. They both looked quite cute luh. (: hmmm, mysterious and attractive. HAHA! learned that from somewhere in facebook. lol. Ruth's leaving for Australia soon. ): I'll missher.

Mood: Rather down.

Event tmrw: open hse and steamship.

Current song: Torn by Letoya.

♥,

Annabel.

PS. keep the tags going. LOVE YOU PEOPLE> (:

2009-11-18T23:21:00.000-08:00

Do you remember what I was when we first met? I'd built walls around my heart, gated them, and thrown away the key. I had been hurt, I told you from the beginning. I'd been used, tricked, played with, but most of all, hurt. I thought it best to never fall in love again. So I locked my heart.

You figured it out quite soon. I said don't fall in love with me. I cannot fall in love with you. I won't. I'm too hurt, too damaged, too afraid to go through all of this once more. I'd decided love was just a scam. So we became friends, and that was okay with me, and with you. And it was all nice and comforting and I let myself trust you.

You would listen to me for hours, as we talked about everything and nothing. You learned why I wasn't willing to let anyone love me, and though you said you would never do that kind of a thing to me, I wasn't ready to trust you to test it out. I kept my walls intact even when I started remembering where I'd thrown the key. It was the only way to keep myself from falling in love.

But then something happened. I woke up three weeks ago and realised that I love you. And you said you love me, and you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didn't realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart.

Now I know. You didn't find the key. You broke into my heart, and I let you. Just don't break my heart.

-Adapted. it's nicee.

-191109.

2009-11-18T23:10:00.000-08:00

♥ HAPPY 19TH NOVEMBERR 2009.
- you're like a melody in my head.
lalala~ everyday.

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2009-11-18T17:09:00.001-08:00

♥AWESOMEE.AT BRYANT'S. :D

AWESOMEEE.

2009-11-17T06:16:00.000-08:00

AWESOMEEEEEEEE.♥
;Friends are like autumn leaves found everywhere.

Goodfriends are like diamonds precious and rare.

Hey readers! haha. superr long never update.

so sorry. But thanks for your constant tags. LOVEDDD AND APPRECIATED.

:D anyway, hmmm. where shld i start . haha. like my life is so happening like that ;D

Yesterday, (dated:16thNov09) Dad asked me if i wanted to go out with Glenna. Poof, i thought singapore was snowing or smth . He nvr allows me to go out luh. Maybe cause it was with Glenna? hahaa. anw, went to Bugis with glenna. actually peilin was suppose to come along. but, she fell SICK :( haha. so it was just me and glenna awesome. so, met her at parkway, then her mum sponser us cab there. so we cabbed theree. Then, we started wondering round bugis. First, went to take Neoprints. :DDD prettyprettyyy. haha. Somebody* smsed glenna ask her what i was wearing. She was like, Halter top and shorts, hot siol. WTH SIA xD hahaaaaaa.

anw, we did nails. then bought boyfriend tee.

She black, i white :D

had great fun. Hope to go out with her soon again (:

Saturday,14thNov09.
Went for Safra shoot with seniors. Omg, crazy people :O haha. Actually i was suppose to shoot WITH maria. But i was the only rifle girl in the end. Zzz. -.- so, reached sch at like 7plus, then, only boys. They were super HORNY! wth man. they're really crazy. they told me they were having some kind of man's/boy's talk. LOL. hahaa. so, uhm, we got on the bus. and, they started deesiao-ing me and stuff. i was like trying to sleep. Then Zven Blasted techno music right into my ear! ZZZ. then, we reached Safra. and Pearlyn and glenna, the awesome people surprised me. They came to support me. so touchedd. (: so, yeah. i shot 365=91.5% !
awesome.

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Omg, Bryant's comp is quite screwed. ): blog again next time.
ciaos,

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2009-11-09T04:20:00.000-08:00

[Saw you at the 3rd floor. I was playing hide and seek. Then Rachel locked me in.
And i saw you, there st the stairs. looking so down. Staring into space.
And having that look on your face.
I felt the urge to go to you and ask if you were okay. I didn't in the end.
I wondered what you were thinking of.
maybe you quarrelled with your bestfriend or smth.
but, i told myself i didn't care. i wonder if i do.
you sat in the sanctuary all alone. I kept turning my head towards you.
I couldn't keep my gaze away. I guess this things just happens.]
-Sunday8thNov2009@Bethanyipc.

Hello Readers :D
today went to visit a commuinity centre.
it was really fun. Hope to upload pictures real soon :D got to go noww.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.
((;

((:

2009-11-06T04:12:00.000-08:00

Firstly! happy(BELATED) birthday to Josiah lim. ((: ♥
you had been a great friend. GodBless. (:
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HELLO PEOPLE/READERS !
HAHA. ESPECIALLY TO : RUTH, PRUDENCE, SHERMAINE, WASAPON AND BRYANT(aka.STARFALLKNIGHT) hahah.
YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST. THANKS FOR ALL YOUR TAGS.
APPRECIATED AND LOVEDDDDDDD, ♥
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Anyway, (: i love being back to blogggg. heehs. so, i missed you people :D and seriously,
my greates and heartest felt thanks for your tags ;) i really appreaciate it . ALOTALOTALOT :D hahahaaaa. you guys are the nicest (: lol. hmmmxc, so past few days i just stayed at home and watched 2 drama serials on MIO tv which is actually a total of 47 episodes and 47 hours.
WOW, i wasted a GREATTTTTT 47 hours of my time. -.- actually that can be a good thing.
haha. so, tmrw i'm going for youngpeople'sgroup (: yayyyy. hahaha.
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♥EventsCalendarRR , grr. :D
1. SportsCaptCamp.
2.RifleShoot@ safraYishun on the 14thnovember. COMESUPPORT!:D hehs. kiddin.
3. PistolShoot@safraYishun on the 22thnovember.COMESUPPORT AS WELL !:D hehs. kiddin.
4.Dad's birthday. 28thnovember. it's gonna be BOOMZ ;P
(FASTFORWARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.)
5. CHRISTMAS CONCERT/MUSICALE. 23rd and 24th December 09.
ANYONE I KNOW OR WHAT.
PLEASEEEEE COMEEEEEEEE :D
more details, www.bethanyipc.org . thanks loads.

thats all i guess, CIAOS.
your tags are greatly appreciated and lovedd.
:D
-Annabel ♥

Already gone,

2009-11-02T05:57:00.000-08:00

Perfect didn't make this love survive, ♥
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hahaha. those were the pictures when i was in sentosa. Was playing at the kids pool with my bros. then this kid from, i dunno what country, started playing with me. Actually i was playing with manyyyy oother kids. But he was the cutest! :D haaa. honestly, i din't know if the kid was girl or boy, turned out to be a boy ;x

-(:

2009-11-01T20:55:00.000-08:00

OH, I NEED SOMEONE TO PUT SONGS ON MY BLOG FOR MEEE.
ANYONE CAN TELL ME KAY (:
THANKSLOADS! :D

me plus you.

2009-11-01T20:43:00.001-08:00

Me plus you.

Remeber all the things we wanted, now all our memories they're honeyed.

We were always meant to say goodbye.

I want you to know, it doesn't matter where we take this world.

Someone's gotta go. I'm already gone.

Wheee. Now at Sengkang library with mum. she let me use comp for 20minutes.

lol. i dunno what to blog abt.

yesterday talked to :

MatthewNg. He's quite nice (: haha. but he had to go to ArmyCamp. so we talked abit. then, yeah. it's nice that he still comes to church despite Army :D

IMISSONEFIVEOHNINE. ):

Currently listening to:

1) One time. - justin Bieber.

2) Already Gone.- KellyClarkson.

IHEARTSXZC these songs alot! (:

HALLOWEEN. ((:

2009-11-01T03:08:00.001-08:00

HALLOWEEN♥. ((:

Hey Readers, Yesterday was HALLOWEEN!(: haha. celebrated it with my brother at 12plus in the morning. Photos of me, courtesy of him (: photos of us, Meeee. (: haha. so, we were wearing devil's horns'. LOL. I turned myself into a scaryyyy person :D haha. flipped my fringe the other way. Then both of us got crazyyyy! :D yay, lol. and i poked his ass with the stick ;D

-Say i scare you , grr. (: ♥.

Today went to church. Mum went for her run. She told me she survived it quite well. played at creche for awhile. My brother was playing chinese chess with tcher gavin. hahaha. the result, teacher Gavin won. :D lol. tooked a photo with darryl and norman. Darryl's leaving ): thats very super sadd. but we'll still remain as bestfriends :DD

just went to Prudence's blog. IMISSTWINN TOO ):

lots of love, ♥.

♥-

2009-10-31T08:32:00.001-07:00

♥.Shattered, broken deep deep down inside.

-I promise you'll never see it.

Met a new friend. Again. her name is 碗儿。She's nice also :D like, sonia (: haha.

Halloween today, went crazy in the carpark. and my brother snapped it down. haha.

thought of using my bag to scareeeee peopleeee.

it didn't work. my hair got messier. haha.

i found a devil's stick and hairbandd. lmao.

Addicted,

2009-10-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

One step at a time, ♥
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So, went to new house today, (: On the way there, the car no petrol! :D haha. then it just stopped. just stopped in the middle of the road. Dad said the car no petrol alr. I was like, omg! so embarassing :D heehs. then, mum must push the car to the side. I was like, Nooooo. i'm so not pushing the carrrrr. haha. and so, my mum went into the car, and dad was like superhuman. he pushed the car! ;D i caught that moment. HE WAS PUSHING THE CAR WITH ONE HAND. O:
haha. so drama. then, we had to go get petrol. mum, brothers, and maid stayed by the car,
i escaped from abt 75% of people staring,horning by getting petrol with dad. Had to walk like three busstops to the petrol station. woof. then, walked back. Dad and I were like, omg, omg. so embarrassing. we were like hogging the road. :D hope we wont appear on stomp or smth. haha!
then, we were like, i dont know that car. xD haha. but we quickly poured the petrol and dunno what, got into the car. And ZOOMZ. we drove off laughing the embarassment of our heads. :D
we zoomed off as a family :D ♥

saturday, 31october2009.

2009-10-31T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hokkaido Trip! :D

Family, (:

Siblings ((;

Hot tears rolled down my face. -The innocent party,

HoneyedMemories of ours, melts away like snowflakes in summer.

Hello Readers (: haha. went to new house today. Thought got wireless. wanted to blog.

then, found out, dont have ! haha , sad luh. so started editing/combining photos.

ANDAND, TADA~ those photos above were created :D i hope they are niceee.

cause like, it's my first time ;x hahaha.

Define perfect,

2009-10-29T06:52:00.000-07:00

Very first posted self pic ;/

Define Perfect,
/;Heartsxzc.-you

Dear Readers, (: heehees.

I'm back to update again. So today, hmmm. i reached school earlier than becky. ;D broke record . lol. so class was as havoc as usual. Discussed abt classouting. Honestly, the discussion part was quite shit. No offence. then had training. lol. Kinda pathetic, but school's gonna end likie tmrw alr! :D hahah. ohyeah, the selfpic, gah, some stupid WOMAN((: who i think rather remain annoymous, has been chasing me to put up a zilian for veryveryvery. happy liao ba, woman ((: haha. so anw, as usual, twinn and me were laughing randomly during Mr.Toh's lesson. HEEHEES. A camera, a teacher that was daydreaming at the comp for awhile, and two crazy people. what can you expect? xD hahah.

hmmm, i reallyreallyREALLY wanna update for the days before. but i really can't really rmb. Or at least put it into words. ): sorry.

Anw, just exited facebook. Talked to a new friend, SoniaGoh.((: hahah. she seems quite niceeee. (: and and , friendly. haha.

BOOMZ. idontknowwhattoblogabt. my mind just went, BOOMZ.

haha.

Monday, 26th october 2009.

2009-10-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

hey, (: hahah. today is promotion day, no need go sch. waitwait, actually i forgot it was what day . but yeah, dont need to go sch.
lawl, now at the library. pathetic? not really, i kinda like sengkang library. (: heehs. read a book on old wives tale. so cool. got all the myths and stuffs. got something in the book about the colour of the dress you marry in.
- married in white, you've chosen right.
married in grey, you will go far away.
married in black, you wish yourself back.
married in red, you wish yourself dead.
married in green, ashamed to be seen.
married in blue, you will always be true.
married in yellow, ashamed f your fellow.
married in brown, you will live in the town.
married in pink, your spirit will sink.

hahah. it's so interesting. But i don't really think it's true? lol. I'm starting to like reading. Okay, that sounded so not meeee- hahah. wait, i very good one okay, hahah.
I've got a confession: ILOVEREADING, romance (:
hahah. does that sound really off? hey, it's not (; whoknows, i'mchanging. CHANGING, ((:
should i go out? or just stay at home and be a girl-next-door ? haha. i don't know, both seems as appealing ;P

sunday, 25th october 2009.

2009-10-25T02:02:00.000-07:00

Before I met you, I wondered,
why all the lyrics in love songs were so,
exagerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and over emotional sentences? Why can't they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? that is just plain exaggerration.
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Before I fell in love with you,I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.
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Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it bacame an obsession? How could one sacriface so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover?that is plain stupidity.
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When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs,novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers' true stories.
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Because when I decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that i once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.

Heys! (; hahah. isn't the starting of the post oh so nice? haha. it's superrrr sweeeeet. haha. anyways, i'm so glad to see new tags on my tagboard (although only a few.) it's really nice yknow (: thankyous to Ruth.girlfr, and Prudence.twinn. love you girls to the core (;
hahah. so, today went to church. probably the quietest sunday, for me. laughs. i was so quiet today. haha. actually being invisible is also not that bad. lol. i'm not trying to be sacarstic. really. haha. (: i kinda don't really hope for school to end. but, yeah. it's like gonna rain soon. what an add on to the dampness of my mood. it's probably likt the feeling that eats into you when you're missing someone or smth. i miss my phone. ): somebody! D: cheer me up.

starting of,

2009-10-21T03:56:00.001-07:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER (;

hahah. so what are my plans?

1. 6-11 dec'09 (YouthConference!)

2. find a date to go out with ♥RUTHgirlf.

3. go out with ♥PrudenceCrazyTwinn.

im back,

2009-10-21T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hey people! ;D i'm back, (:
sry for the very superrrrr long MIA yeah, ;x
anw, i'm back from MIa-ing (;
missed blogging quiteabit .
sry cant upload pictures. As yknow, phone is confiscated.
so.. hmmm. loads of stuff happened.
i'm still kinda touch by friends who see my blog (;
heehs. i dont really know what to write abt though.
Currently listening to :
1. No Boundries.
2. Send it on.
3. 我们怎么了
4. 不要走

loveallofyou,
Annabel (;

19th september2009

2009-09-19T01:50:00.000-07:00

hey all! omg, so sry so long nvr update.
i promise after exams k(: hahaha.
erm, happy 19thsept,

040709!<3

2009-07-08T00:57:00.001-07:00

♥ThirteenBirthday!(:

040709!<3

he didn't remember i guess.

but, i guess this things just happen.

oh boy;/

hey readers! my birthday just past.

i had quite a great time(; the people made it possible ;D

hahaha. so, how did this year's birthday pass?

hmmm, i talked to people on the eve of my birthday (:

then, yeah.

Timothy and i almost spent the night away. like, on the computer,

i only slept ard.. 4.40plus.

super late. but, yeah . thanks tim! ;)

then, i woke up. it was the actual day! wooHoos.

received quite alot of birthday smses, thankyous people(;

uhm, so yeah.

then, the party went well.

andandand, oh yeah. i bought a bikini! gosh.

hahaha.

the party was really like cool. Yeah.

i felt reallyreally tired?

cause i was fetching people from everywhere.

hahah.

so we played games and stuff. AWESOME ROCKS. hahah.

they smashed cake IN MY FACE x.x

at night, qaisara came (:

so, the girls and i went for a night walk.

we went really hyperr :D

all of us suffered from post party high.

haha.

watched transformers2.

optimus prime is my husband. bumblebee is my step husband :D hahah.

kept talking to junheng in the middle of the movie.

it ended at one in the morning.

supperrr tired.

shall edit this post next time.

cause at ifah's hse, then lazy type. :D

♥thankyou; awesomeness.

13th birthday eve;♥

2009-07-03T08:44:00.000-07:00

If you dont know me at this point,
then i highly doubt you'll ever will.
we're just erasing us from our hearts and minds.
And i know we said let go,
But i kept hanging on.
inside i know it's over, you're gone.

Hey readers! (:
it's now officially 12plus, which means, it's 4th of july!
woohoo~ hahaha.
this year, interestingly BRYANT was the first to wish me happy birthday!;)
thankyous yeah :D youRockk,
hahaha.
so, this year i'm gonna have a party.. and yeah.
i just bought a choc brown coloured bikini man.. gosh.
cant believe it. of cause i'll wear a tee over (; hahaha.
the song of my mood now is 'I stay in love' !!!rocks luh.
hahaha. this birthday, i was suppose to spend it , differently.
but, well things never go as planned .. hahah..
felt quite sad luh._.
"celebrate with me no matter what..." haha.. yeah right,.
guess you had your own reasons, that you wouldn't wan me tocomprehend;
Ihope one day, you'll make me understand :'(

it's never too late ;
150409'outram.mrt
that fateful day. it neverleft me.

NEOPRINTS!<33 ahPAT.

2009-07-01T04:34:00.000-07:00

♥NEOPRINT<33 . ahPAT(:
hahaha. went to escape with patricia.
the viking was like superr funny. and scary.
we were like, the sky sooo blue when it when up,
then when come down, AHHHHHHHHH :D
hahaha will go out with you again yayahs.
-loves♥

NEOPRINTS!<33 girlf.

2009-07-01T04:18:00.000-07:00

[♥]NEOPRINTS! <33 . RUTH!girlf.

girls night out. hahaha.
it was after the NJC shoot. at HomeTeam,
then it was same day as girls night out.(GNO)
hahaha.
ruth and i went to westmall and took neoprints! before proceeding to church for GNO.
hahah. we hardly took neoprints, and there you go.
we were late for GNO lol.
then so dark luh. we camworhed. but i lazy put... sry ahs.
so, yeah. wonderful night.
-GIRLF forever; ♥

SHOOTING!(:

2009-07-01T03:45:00.000-07:00

♥SHOOTING!(:

hahahaha. those photos just so wanna make me smile.
That's my beloved tms shooting club.
haha. that day we go Safra yishun .
For the NUS invitational shoot.
then, yeah.
the new electronic thing so intimadating.
sucks luh. I scored 89%
\damn it?/ drop alr. the score . sadsad;(
anw, yeahs, alot of us didn't do well.
Pearlyn cried ;d omg, i felt so down cans.

cheered her upp, owing it to glenna hahaha.
then, yeah. look at the photo of her eating the hotdog. so hyperr:D
then the girls and i all went to the toilet. we decided to take picture!~
on self timer(: prettayes;D
love you all luh.
Eunice, loh shu heng is not worthit, get over it, you can do it girl;)

-ROCKS MY SOCKS.♥

setia.

2009-07-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

Setia Badminton Competition♥
So, i went to malaysia. for this badminton comp.
And , well, it was a long ride.
the hotel i stayed in was concorde hotel.
hahaha. so yeah,
my bro didn't win anything.
the people play well, veryvery well(:
hahaha., then i went to sunway lagoon, rocks my ass.
then i saw coach dixon at the sshopping mall.
the next day, we went to see semi-finals/ finals.
omg, i saw this , well, kind of cute guy ;x
SingaporeSportsSch's: LESLIE TPL.
hahaha. that's what his tee wrote.
lol, infactuation only(; ( means i dont like him in that way now.)
he won joint third, quite good.
HE IS SOOooOoo tall.
and yeah, missed church and RUTH!girlf.
hahaha.
-Annabel's♥

where did i stop,

2009-07-01T03:15:00.000-07:00

what hurts the most, was being so close.
Having so much to say, watching you walk away.
what will we, what could've been.
not seeing but loving you,
was what i was trying to do.

Hey all! I missed you all man. Thank you all so much for keep coming .
I've decided to revive it. bcos of you all! hahaha. really. thank you.
hahah. so, where shld i strt? dun mind if i random..
cause i got stml rmb? hahah.

25thMay, sports challenge.

2009-05-25T09:01:00.001-07:00

25thMay2009!
SportsChallenge. I played badminton lehs.
Dont laugh! hehs. We won second. but we might have a higher chances of winning if the one Eight girls played badminton. Sry to Athena too. I really wanted to sub out.
and, YiQing, takeCares horhs.
I sat on a motorbike today. it was freaking XiaSuay to wear the helmet. SuperBig cans?
but no choice , for my safety.
lols. then, i sat the motorbike , for the first time in thirteen years. or twelve years plus.
my first encounter with it was good! super shiok.
hahah. but my skirt flew up a little,.. lucky got wear pe shorts!
i managed to take a few pictures. Risking my phone. it could heve flown Away! hahah.
kiddin(: anw, thanks uncle for giving me the ride. I didn't know i was so important to my family...
*guilty* Mr.Chan went to laos and build toilets.. Mrs. Chan dont sad kays! hahs. joking,
then later went to change my mother's phone at sunplaza. got this hot guy. but i just shunt. hahah. cant forget him yet >< GAH[!]
then me and my bro took pic in the toilet to distract us away from this,... foul smell? GROSS=.=
gtg now, BBYES(:

25thMay2009

2009-05-25T08:27:00.000-07:00

I LOVE ACS(P)'S BADMINTON TEAMS. JUNIOR AND SENIOR(:
dedicated to:
-Teddy , Samuel, Shaun, HuaShin, HuaWei, ErnWei and his brother(s), Ryan and mason!:D
24thMay09
I went to the ACS(P) badminton gathering at a nice chalet. It was super nice one can?
hahah. well, it wouldn't have been if not for the wonderful little boys there. They were really funny and nice loving. Haha. they locked me in a cupboard. A few times with teddy somemore. But of cause nothing happened. for the fun of it;D hahshahs.
oh, and teddy's oloder brother, terry, is in the same sch as Josiah.L same age somemore. wonder if same class ? lol. but he looked exactly like teddy! my gosh.
i told the children ghost stories, which didn't seem to scare them, AT ALL. Zzz.
all my efforts for trying to entertain them. hahah. kiddin(:
in the end, they took a grp phto, someone shouted, call mason's sister to come in!
I felt SUPERR HONOURED yahs. but the adults didn't really catch that sentence so, i just, let it pass;( hahah. jkjk.
but seriously, I had total pure and innocent fun. love them all<3
ROCK ON BOYS!
- And yes, life's better. :D

24thMay2009;

2009-05-24T00:10:00.000-07:00

confused, lost and shattered;
I looked at his shoe, it reminded me of the first time,
when i untied his shoelace which he never untied before.
hahah..
-but it's all in the past.

hey alls!(:
sry for not updating so long luh.
hahas. hmmm. today is sunday! and, no, i didn't miss church(:
i think ruth was quite happy with the prezzie?;D hahahh.
thank yous to ruth, daryl, norman, haoran and jiabao for helping me in one way or another.
hahah. erh, i got some photos to upload(: but now at macs, then, nvr bring cable ;/
today, in church, nothing really happened. hahah.
i'm going to help out for junior camp!:D he also, wth >< *awkward*
2th june got air rifle and girls night out.
tmrw got prize presentation! yay. hope wont postpone again(:
-shooters united.

hypocrites luhh.

2009-05-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

HYPOCRITES LUH:D
please dun act alr , can? i'm sry for whatever that you thought i did wrong.
it was a surprise. I couldn't control. you dont have to make it so obvious.
or pollute people's mind. but by still talking to me, you're a great person still.
thanks for being the greatest hypocrite, liar and gossiper of the year.
sry, not century yet. hahah. you'll have to do better .

Today morning, went to sch, woofs. Had a rather serious flu.
lol. went to sch. Prudence had elmo for her birthday prezzie from shermaine! hahah.
uhm, i forgot to bring storybk for silent reading! lucky chelsea's friend saved me.
SiokHwee bought same phone as me but diff colour.
I just recieved my results: (P.S they totally suck.)
History: B4 (61%)
The rest ard C6 there. I'll work harder. hehs(:

Then after sch, had shooting club meeting. hahah. ShuQi, Vanessa cried cause of results. cheer up. then suddenly got this crying drama. hahah. leonard didn't save me from ShuQi's grip .
GOSH. i Almost died out there. Leonard's going to laos to build toilets ? LOL.
okay luhh, dun tease ShuQi luhh(:
then we shotshotShot. the seniors joked out loud. i seriously had a hard time trying to concentrate. haha. so, long.

save you.

2009-05-18T06:00:00.000-07:00

the late picture!
FEATURING : PRUDENCE AND SHERMAINE(:
censored alittle :D

latelate!

2009-05-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! girlf[♥]RUTH!(:
and marissa,my senior(: hahah.
hey all!(: sry for the reallyreally late post. couldn't use com. hahah.
but my exams are officially over yah~ so,i'm free.
please, someone call me go out :D
hahah. hmmm.so... some updates.
14thMay officially rockks luh, first it was girlfey's birthday. happy birthday yah,
i couldn't be with her. She was like, in the west? hahah. but i called her.
heyy, we're like friends for how long alr? 6 years five months kay. lol.
so,erm, yeah.
i went to Ehub! with siokHwee(: we were like wondering at tampOne.
then wander till downtown east.
lol. we felt super sian luh.
so we decided to like, sneak in the neoprint :D hehs.
we did it kays. But then,this was the first attempt.
we didn't have coins!;( then, yeah.
sneak in then have to sneak out again. haharhs.
so we tried a few restuarants. but they all didn't have.
then we go NTUC!(: finally.
so, we managed to sneak in the second attempt.
we thought the ppl blind one. but we totally forgot that there was smth called CCTV.

15thMay -Entwined by the loneliness, I pray to forget you.
Okayy, so much for looking forward to this day .
Today shld have been the day we'll celebrate the end of your exams, together.
But it's all gone.
I was so tempted to go to punggol park. but i saw my mother downstairs. I thought i was okay alr.. from all that happened.
But the thought of the hope i held onto, just makes me shatter again. I tried not to. i didn't want to. but it just got to me.
I wondered, standing in the direction of his hse.
Is he feeling anything? Is he out with his friends? has he forgotten everything? has he erased everything and me from memory, or is he struggling in them like i am?
I really wanted answers. But they just didn't come. I felt lost. I didn't know, how or what.
This day i've been looking forward to. now just seem meaningless.
I tried to sleep the feeling away, but it was just like a tranquilizer.
The effect started to wore away.
why am i so useless? Why? tell me, which hurts?
Trying to hate him,or knowing you dont.
And i also want to thank ruth and HaoRAn(: for helping me spent the day knowing someone cares;D iloveyou luhs!(: hahah.

16thMay,
Today, I didn't go for ypg. lol. nothing much really happened.
i think i'm addicted to save you by simple plan (HaoRan'sversion)
super nice one can .

17thMay.
today i missed church. Wonder if he actually realised. Zzz.
i woke up like, eleven plus. then, yeah. was abit feverish and had sore throat.
hahah. heard he's going for a barbeque. happy barbeque-ing. perhaps you can try barbeque-ing the memories away. hahah. i'm so clever. then, yeah. studystudySTUDY.
i felt so guilty.keep asking haoran to play the guitar . sry

18thMay, desperate for your voice;(NOT!) hahah:D
okayy, today,morning. prudence and shermaine cut banks!!! haha. i got the picture. promised them i'll feature them(: hehs.
okay, maths paper one almost killed me abit . but WHOO CARESS??
exams are like over. ZZzz.
i'll fast forward all the sch stuff to end of sch. Jiajun, Adhi, janus and siokhwee. decided to go eastpoint. first we bused from tms to tanahMerah then we trained all the way to simei.

okay, here comes the totally retarded and dumb part. main comedian, JIAJUN.
co.Stars, adhi, janus, siokhwee and Annabel.
he wanted to go and eat macs. but we went to eastpoint which didn't have macs. LOL.
then we trained back to tamp.
fastforwardddds.....
then, i saw two ACS(I) people. gosh. that uniform . go away luh. hahah.
x ruth girlf,get well yeah(:

to end it of,here are my at this moment(s);
Cravings- Someone to msg me. HAha. kiddin.
song listening to- right here waiting for you.- Richard.M
Feeling- stoning, laughing life off with SiokHwee.
expression- x.x

love ya! bbyes.

he's gone;

2009-05-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

so many things happened, now, he's gone.
hahah, it totally tired me out. but, yeah, he's gone.
hmm, ruth girlf had fever!;( get well soon yeah(:

today's science paper totally screwed me luhh. it was super
diff! i think i'll fail ;x all his fault luh. kiddin(:
i felt super exhausted today morning luhh.
stayed up till twelve to study. senior fabian can vouch for that.
paul, if you want to snatch someone's gf, just do it.
but i'm not really interested yeah, sry.
after the paper, bused home with, jiajun, Yeeyong, and janus.
i told kor, me and him no more friends alr. then he was like Yay.
i so wanted to smack him cans(: kiddin. but later he asked me what
happened luh. then i was like, i dunno luh. hahah. i practically binge
ate. cause like, my bad habit muh. sad then will just eateatEAT.
hahs. then i went home, i was walking from my home bus stop to
my house. half way, i suddenly involunteerily turned to the left,
towrds the playground... then i went there and just sat at the place,
i used to sit with him... it was so silent. then i started to like, walk
ard, slowly, bit by bit.. like i waswalking down my memory lane..
but it was really quite nice though\: i felt so relaxed and my spirits
were abit lifted up(: hahah. snapped a few pics, walked ard it for
awhile, then, go home. felt so much better(: maybe i'll go punggol
park tmr..

- wishing we were somehow there again;

;Edited/

2009-05-11T23:58:00.000-07:00

;edited/ when someone told me you were sick of me.
GetOut of my life ,please? you dun deserve my friendship.
tell me if you're sick of me. just say it. Dun wry, i'll throw that book away;
i'm not desperate for you, i just didn't want you to think i didn't care that we haven't been talking.
wait, you never wanted it. haha, i forgot.
Yeah, erm, it'll do me alot of good if you go away, and disappear for good. hahah, i thought you were different or smth.
so, all those, memories, like punggol park and blindmice weren't anything to you ? wow. i salute you. you're really a great actor. but sry, my life just isn't hollywood.
If you cant remember what you said, i'll remember it for you.
someone said he meant whatever he says, someone said that we must be friends no matter what, it's a promise. someone says that he's sry for not treating properly, cause he's reallyreally stressed. and everything will change after exams. HAHA.
can you give me back the josiah lim i knew?
or tell him that, he's new twin sucks. and i enjoyed the times with him. say sry to him for whatever i've done. if you can find him, please tell me, cause i really miss him and the times we had.

inspirations.

2009-05-11T22:06:00.000-07:00

2009-05-11T21:59:00.000-07:00
hahah, i'm back, insprirations `
-teehees!;'/

And If you were to jump off a building, I wouldn't jump with you, I'd be at the bottom to catch you;

& Its never too late to apologize .

It's killing me to see you go after all this time .
Music starts playing at the end of a sad movie .
It's the kind of ending you don't really wanna see .
Cause its tragedy and it'll only bring you down .
And I don't know what to be without you around .

And we know it's never simple, never easy.
-& I can't breathe .
Memories of what used to be keeps haunting me .
;'/ smile-

i'm really sry alrights;

2009-05-11T20:23:00.000-07:00

this is to josiah;
i'm really sry abt yesterdy's post alrights.. (if you actually saw it.)
but, i really didn't mean it . I got the wrong information D; but i almost threw the book away, lucky got the right information in the end(: hahah. (dunno if you even care luh huh, but anw,)
reallyreallyREALLY; thousands apologies. i'm really Sry.

.:omg, i miss bollywood actor. i miss the morning smses. i miss the endless things we talk abt,
the late replies, the morning XXX msges. i dunno. can everything really change after 15thmay ?
well, he mkes the impossible possible. i really miss my good friend.
- xbestfriend, hope you're doing well(:

today, i had geog paper, it was quite tough ;x but i dun think i'll fail. okay, maybe i might luhh.
i dunno. i felt seriously lost today morning, i woke up from weird dreams.
First was prudence and some chalet thing. then was ainsley and someone.
AH-HAH!~ maybe it was some sort of prediction or something.
Anyway, what ever it was , i was totally affected luh . couldn't concentrate.
i realise i lose my train of thoughts so easily this few days. i dunno why,
someone help me man. cause this sucks. i think abt soomething, then when someone calls me i'll be like, huh? i dunno luh. it just got to me yesterday. I think alot recently. omg. and it's really getting to me.
I feel really suffocated you know. like,a block downthere. I tried talking to people, friends, who offer to listen( thank yous!) but it doesn't seem to work . it just come collapsing down.
Promise in the dark is really nice. it's by keri hilson. the lyrics are totally nice.
yesterday i watched metermophosis. the chinese drama serial. yeah, the girl's guy died.
he said this before; there are many uncertainties in my life, but you're the only one that never was.
woah. it was really nice. she just couldn't forget him. what's worse? trying to hate him, or knowing you dont? i dunno,
the song played out in chinese,.. (for all non-chinese or not so good in chinese , i'll translate, hahah)

开心伤心谁来决定-happy or sad, who decides?
用尽真心却得不到任何回应-using all your heart, but there's no reply,
心如此安静-quiet as ever
记性注定像个刺青-destiny is like a tattoo,
刺激内心一度沉睡的旧感情-deep down, that huge pile of old feelings
如此不安宁just cant subside
牵着你的左手你右手悬空-holding your left hand,your right hand wavers
仿佛是有所保留- as if there's some sort of keeping.
握着你的右手你有话不说-holding your right hand, there's somethings you didn't say.
隔了层沉默你慢慢疏离我- then you strt to go away from me.
无声的背叛- a soundless betrayal.
原来失去是那么简单- so, losing something is so easy..
你是我要的(我是你要的)- you're the one i want.
为何变成一个陌生人(来陪伴)- why become like strangers?
对你的背叛-the betrayal towards you
是回忆要时间去替换- it takes time to go over,
我尽力勇敢- i try to be courageous
但如果你已下判- but if you've alr judged me,
我,只能说遗憾- regret is all tht's left.

okayy, it's not really that accurate luh :D but i tried. my knee wound splitted in two.. when i tried bending it D; someone comfort me man. hahah. anyways, do tagg before you leave, whether you like me or not(: hahah. kiddin;D

-ifyou're there, please say smth ;'/

get out,

2009-05-10T22:47:00.001-07:00

................................

2009-05-10T22:19:00.001-07:00

却得不到任何回应..

ilove my brothers!

2009-05-10T21:28:00.001-07:00

I've decided to take it in a brighter light;

Please dont break your promise, i know you wont.

bestfriends(: -15thmay
hahaha, today is a school holiday, quite boring luh at home. haha. hmmm, i felt very lost.
yeah; but i think, i'll just wait for 15may to come(: haha.

the photos are courtesy of my brothers!! iloveyou, boys<3

All PHOTOS COURTESY OF NICHOLAS AND MASON!!

without him;

2009-05-10T18:11:00.000-07:00

Both of us haven't been talking..
and i think there's a reason or maybe he's just really stressed and stuff. i don't know, really.
I missed talking to, Josiah;
I have to admit, seriously.
He said everything will change after exams, it's a promise. But the hope that this promise will be granted, seems to be declining day by day.
What's happening, really. Is this friendship that, at least i treasure so much going to disappear into thin air just like that?
Yesterday was combined worship. My knee still hurts.
You know, from the strt of the year till now, about 90% of all the combined worships were always, Annabel, ruth and josiah. But it was different today..
dun ask me why, what or how. I also dunno. I wanted to ask him if he wanted to seat with me and ruth, but i just couldn't find the courage .
Obviously he didn't ask me like last time. he got alot of friends, what am i to him? just another person in his life. I still cant believe i forgotten his smile, it's just not logical.
so back to combined worship, I talked to ruth... then like, i started to cry.
Real bad! like, you know i dun cry that easily.
just that, the memories of sitting together just kept coming back.
like, leaning towards him when i'm feeling cold, accidentally zapping him, hearing that 'neigh!' exclaimation, and lastly looking at his smile, haha.
i sat directly behind him, 3 rows behind.
Saw that pink shirt guyy. lol, the one with red specs.
then i just looked at his back, yeah... maybe i'm only supposed to watch him from the back.
it's like, when i cried, he was down there . 3 rows in front. giggling and laughing with his friends. and there i was, tearing and crying. He'll never know, someone has shed tears for him, he'll never know. he'll never understand, what it's like , loving a friend who's in a rush to throw you away.
XXX told me that, in his point of view, josiah wants me out of his life. I didn't know what to think, cause, i never thought of that.
I dunno, may be i'm just too sensitive? maybe we'll become like we were last time? bestfriends whowent to punggol park together. Bestfriends who went home together. Bestfriends who shared everything and anything with each other. Bestfriends who could talk abt anything under the sun. bestfriends who promised each other they'll be friends no matter what life brings...
i dunno.
I cant lose you, my bestfriend;

oral

2009-05-06T18:21:00.001-07:00

lol. that time got oral.

informal one.

then before my turn, weall go cam-worhing. super funny(:

jiajun, alynna, adhi, kelvin.

lol. we accidentally disturbed amalina and the kitchen ppl.

LoveConcierge

2009-05-06T18:09:00.000-07:00

hahah. i watched loveConcierge.

so nice luhs(:

she just couldn't erase the memories that she had with him.

they kept each other alive.

super swt.

provindence has decreed that we should be together(:

awww.

xlate pics

2009-05-06T17:22:00.000-07:00

xJosiah's exams strt today. GoodLucks.

hello(:

had napfa, then run 2.4km

i fell at the last part! super pain luh.

mr tan helped me to the sick bay.

jiajun help me dress wound. he lousy sjab. hahah. kiddin.

but seriously, my leg freaking pain luhs.

100th post(:

2009-05-03T22:52:00.000-07:00

it's official. 100th post(:

Yay. finally. pls send me some comfort by letting me know someone knew my blog has it's 100th post. thank you.
haha.
hey thr! i missed this blog(:
but i want to thank the people keeping it alive,
with your tags. hahah. so fast right? one hundredth post alr.
finally reached one hunredth.
since last year(:
People i'll like to thank:(not according to merit)
-Canossians'08
-temasekians'09
-ChurchMates
-passer bys who once complimented me.
-And every one who's reading this.

-

it's alrite.

2009-05-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

Thank You , HaoRan(:
ILoveYou, in a friendly way.
Really; thanks for listening to me and cheering me on when i needed someone th most.
YOU'RE THE BEST;D
omg. one more post to the 100th one! JIAYOUS.
heyy people. hope you all aren't too stressed bcos of exams or anything.
dun overwk. smile kay.
hahah. today in church. lol.
nothing much really happened in the morning.
hmmm. afternoon...
Josiah, Ainsley, sat in front of me and ruth. I was like super surprised.
when he went somewhr, then ainsley say he wanted to see my inbox. lol.
kiddingly of cos. of cause i said no(:
then ruth was like; "wish you were here with me right now, i miss you. blahh blahh blahh"
i was like; omg. stop it. in a friendly way.
then when Josiah came back, in a random moment, he just ,.. looked back,
and smiled. omg , i was totally captured, and mesmerised . like,
i hadn't seen tht smile in a longlong time...
omg. i can still rmb it so vividly,
but now, it strts to fade from my memory.
i read through my msgs. it brought back so much stuff into my head.
Wht is this? from a daily msg, and plenty of pure chattering to just a msg a day,
and almost three days of emptiness.
can this really all be changed after the exams? i hope so;
he always makes the unexpected happen. hahah(:
he better this time. ;D

......100th post coming up!

2009-04-30T07:28:00.001-07:00

hahah. so thr;
today i got to know this new person.
Paul's friend(: HaoRan.
hahah. he bluff me leh! wth.
kidding. i'm able to take jokes. talked on the phone with him.
VictoriaSch one leh. mai siaosiao.
haha. he very friendly. +PLUS his a guitarist!<3
hahah. dun wry, we're only friends(:
hahah. for art, i learned how to draw an apple(:
i know, it looks really nice and real right? hehs.
i ended up editting one at home. with eyes somemore.
i also know how to draw fruit basket. BLEH;P i know you all jealous larh! kidding:D

At the rooftop. best girlf.

2009-04-30T07:19:00.001-07:00

hmmmm. wht else...
oh yeah; i went to the rooftop with ruth.
for some reasons.
I didn't talk to njosiah the whole sunday. or practically the whole week.
record broken: one week of silence.
hahah. EXAMS LUH!
we were cam-worhing all the way.
it still cheered me up some how.
I LOVE girlfRUTH!
i started reading the book.
i missed it ALOT.
like, all the memories and stuff came back(:
then my mother called. Zzzz. spoiled everything.
hahah. kidding.
thanks for creating priceless and special memories and moments,
i know more will come, after the exams.
that's your promise right?(:
written with a pen, sealed with a kiss;
you better keep your promise(:

misses! 30th april.

2009-04-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

heyy all! OMG! I miss blogging.
hmmmm. cut the crap.. let's see wht my blog has missed.
HAPPY REMINISCENCE DAY just passed. haha.
xhappy moments never fade, neither do memories(:
English paper one finally over. YeonJae super happy luhs.
hahah.
i went to BBT shop with Zalifah, Becky, YiQing ,Alynna and tristan!
haharhs! look at the water level that flooded our shoes man!
it was kind of crazy.. everyone went super HYPER!
we were like laughing our asses of.
still haven't claim from the aunty our medical fees! haha.
KIDDIN;D

22 April2009

2009-04-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

heyy all.
firstly, sry to Bryant, Daryl and YanFeng for not posting abt the history thing yesterday.
so, here it goes.
yesterday during history, we doing corrections.
then suddenly Bryant started talking abt what,
Hawaii people and some random thing.
he said Hawaii was nice.
except the people wearing coconuts shell a bras.
wth la.
it was totally irrelevant to history.
He was super random.
then we laugh until, cant hold the pen properly to do corrections.
Hmm. yeah. i think that shld be it(:
back to today,
we had SCI2(biology).
then we did two practicals.
one is abt diffusion. another one abt ... some starch thing.
the diffusion one not so fun.
just had a bit of problems trying to squeeze the correct amount of ....
wait. what's that called?...
pottasium pomegranate?
i think it is.
yeah.. it was purplish.
it took 20minutes to see the effect. according to the science wksheet.
then we did the other practical.
the visking tubing look like condom .
no offence luhs.
got take picture of the fun prac!(:
will post next time.
for now,
my blog's gonna have it's 100th post soon(:
so, yeah.
withLove;

EasterMusicale(: cum lunch.

2009-04-20T06:29:00.001-07:00

srysry for this latelate post):
i had easter lunch at shangri-la!(:
before that, had musicale.
after the musicale, was the only time i realised how beautiful my church's rooftop was.
bcos of somebody eh?;D
blehh.
i also learnt how you can spend your time away at a hotel's upper level .
COURTESY OF SOMEONE(:

20th April 2009

2009-04-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

heyy, all.
I'm back again to revive my blog.
okay. it's not tht long since i updated.
but i miss all of you(:
thanks for the taggs!(:
hahah.
okay, today...
hmmm. Everything started normal i guess?
with an sms from Josiah..
then, jiajun ask me where i was.
He waited for me at the bus stop lehs! to take 10 with me(:
I love you korkor!! so touched you actually waited for me.
hahah.
then, Alynna msged me to ask if i got extra batch. i was like no.
haha.
reply her and josiah's msgs halfway the bus jerked.
OMG! i leaned onto a malay temasekian. senior.
he was like giving me that soft type of, friendly look.
then i looked at him back for abt 10 seconds.
then say, i'm sry. with a slight embarrassed smile.
GRR. JiaJun alr silently laughing.
hahah.
then reached sch.
talked to Zalifah.
Then, I think me and alynna and her talk abt weihan.
then i was msging Josiah mah.
then, they suddely, wah. Josiah again?!
lol.
but friendlyfriendly one luh(:
i just replied; hehe(:
then follow Zalifah to the toilet.
lucky it wasn't as stinky as tht time me and Becky go in the morning with her.
sms halfway, Josiah suddenly pissed.
i also felt so helpless.
i strted jumping up and down, front and forward.
jump back to the assembly area.
then suddenly shout ah!
then Zalifah and Alynna thought what happened.
then i was like, oh shit. oh shit.
then, zalifah was like, Aiyoh. wht happen.
then i told her.
then assembly strted.
i was like so afraid he'll be seriously pissed.
after awhile i forgot.
right after assembly, rmb again.
Design and technology.
that cutting thing make Alynna's and my hands super pain.
i accidentally cut my hand.
All josiah's fault! ;P
hahah.
Alynna was smsing weihan.
then like, i offered to cut her acrylic for her.
i was actually venting all my emotions.
she was like, eh, why you venting your emotions?):
then i was like, nothing luh.
then later i was like cutting vigorously! then she offer me a listening ear.
thanks Alynna.
shortly after, Josiah replied.
hahah.
All your fault lah.
hahah. joking(:
after recess, got physics.
we burnt a magnesium ribbon! I"M TELLING YOU- IT"S SUPERR COOL LUH HUH.
i and yiqing took a picture of us wearing the googles thing under the table.
haha.
super fun(:
after tht, went home.
me and my brother do homewk until sian.
WE THE BIG SLACKERS!! yay(:

I'm backk to update!(:

2009-04-17T05:38:00.000-07:00

heyy all! I miss my blog!
hahah.
so long never update.
yeah.
not relly very long uhs(:
Today is speech day.
lol. Hugo and me counting down to the end of maths.
sry if i disturbed you prem. didn't meant to alrights!(:
i apologise(:
sch ended at 9.55am.
only two hours of lessons.
must well dun go.
YiQing today late for sch.
madam amalina cut her fringe.
but it's quite nice.
dun wry Yiqing.
your hair will grow(:
I thought josiah's phone stuck in the toilet or smth.
but it was quite diff without his sms...
blehh. he is sooooOOoo gonna grinn when he sees that part.
Anyways, i came home.
then played with my dad's binoculars with my brother.
so funny ;
the pictures are courtesy of my brother (:
i thought i was like going to fall off the window.
my brother took a shot of me covering my mouth.
HEYYS! i was in a state of shock kay.
trust him to take a picture when i'm traumatised. hmpt.
I attempted to lick him. hahah.
binoculars was so fun(:
we were like spying on people.
hahah!s

latelate):

2009-04-15T23:08:00.000-07:00

HappyBirthday; JiaMeng!
today is JiaMeng's birthday!(:
i made him a birthday card.
but dun think he'll receive it.
anw, happy birthday kayys!(:
big boyy liao worhs.
hope you not flirting anymore horhs(:
hahahs.
today, i was late for sch.
my maid's alarm spoil.
but how to tell teacher to blame the alarm? they won't believe);
hahah.
Yesterday i came home supperr late luhhs.
like, close to seven o'clock.
i think, my parents abit pissed.
shit uhs.
forget to give him sth.
we were like, playing.
then i wanted to rip the tie open.
omg.
i suceeded. the thread came out. first one, second one.
lucky dun have third.
if not naughty boy will punish good girl(:
hahah.
lucky i have nine lifes(:
if not die liao.
anw, will update more detailed(:
bbyes.

Miss!!!

2009-04-15T00:54:00.000-07:00

omg,
i miss all of you(:
Everyone kay(:
My ruth, becky,josiah,YiQing(:
AhhAHHs!
i miss all of you luhs.
first thing first.
got soooOoo much to blog abt.

Went for choir prac,
Josiah told me it strted at 2.30
but actually at 12.45
went to sanctuary.
heard the song "blessed is he" playing,
was like, woah.
got ghost?
then saw every one practising.
omg.
saw ruth.
she rushed up to me.
ask me if i was alrite.
i was like...?
she told me she knew abt the YiQing's blogg thing.
then.
yeah..
i was like, when you know this type of thing one??
then she suddenly like, so caring and stuff.
Ruth mature lerhs~
hahahs!

Next,
lets forwardd to...
10April.
yeah.
i met Josiah's friend; Panya(:
hehe.
she brought her boyfriend too(:
Issac.
both of them are like hot people luhs!(:
very match(:
Then i when to the rooftop.
it was like darkdark..
superr scary):
but thankfully got my support(:
felt so much better(:
went up thr to talktalk;
then, yeah, gtg.
super nice.
then later josiah,me and my mum took a lift from teachr michelle.
then my phone alarmed me.
it was josephDimmick's birthday!
i called him(:
hahah.
i'm such a great person(:
yeah.
so farr... like tht?
cant really rmb stuff.
oh yeah.
just went to ruth's blog(:
cheer up girlf<3>

4april

2009-04-03T18:33:00.000-07:00

morning(:
woke up like 8 plus.
superrr early.
my father dragged me out of bed!
to go to ACS(br)
my brother got badminton training ,
yesterday talked to Josiah on ebuddy..
Josiah, send my regards to the injured one ya.
i felt so guitly.
you needed me but i wasn't thr.
i'm really sry for not beiing thr):
forgive me.
I felt guilty the whole night.
everytime i needed you,
you'll be thr,
but when you needed me;
i wasn't...
forgive me(:

Talk to me? start of losing our friendship?

2009-04-03T06:41:00.001-07:00

heyy all!(:
OMG; i'm surprised...
Ice came to my blog? wow. WOW.
Yiqing came to tagg! YAY.
Josiah want to talk to me?-doesn't sound very good.

Is this the start of losing the friendship?
i dunno.
Is trying to make him understand going to help?
i dunno.

i only know, this doesn't seem very good...
i only know, the talk wont end well,..
i only know, this cant be the end.
i only know, i never regretted this.
AND, i only know,
i cant lose this friendship.
i dunno what tmr will bring;
but,i'm prepared, to let fate unwhirl our affinity.
i hope it's good.

the break up message.

2009-04-03T00:08:00.001-07:00

ZZzzz.
so bored):
just remebered the break up message from ice.
it's so nice.
I tried to convince myself that you don't really exist . And you are just a voice that was kept deep within my soul ,Slowly eating away at me altering all reality. Then you called me. Once i heard, your voice ,my heart begin to shatter again .The pain reminded me what you told me. I try to let the rain wash away the pain. But the pain will always remain. I locked away myself deep inside my heart. Trapped by the loneliness .Entwined by the betrayal .And kept alive by the emptiness I pray to forget you .Let you fade away so i can start afresh But your voice has engraved itself into my memory. Consuming me further into this nightmare leaving me lost And forever bound to the pain....

but, yeah.
glad we're off now.

>yiqing

2009-04-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

i read YiQing's blog.
yepps(:
okay...
i was okay with what she wrote(:
i didn't really meant to flirt or in any sense lah...
sry yiqing):
but anw, i felt so weird not talking to her today.
and alynna, i NEVR call you dog.
yeah.
hope we'll patch up soon(:
and, acording to my lao bu, i wont be having my phone.
yeah.
so thr;

-3april. Zzzz.

2009-04-02T23:11:00.000-07:00

hey all ,
today at sch like super weird.
so odd,
except for the morning..
talked to becky abt stuff luhs.
then clarified the yiqing that thing.
so ..sry becky(:
and after that, lessons as usual.
thought talking to josiah would help..
but yeah..
anyways, thanks josiah... for talking to me(:
hope you're okay after the chem accident..
yeah.
then after that, we had chinese.
wrote compo on the 妈妈，我想对你说。。。
quite okay luhs.
yiqing wrote very well.
i wrote...
okayokay.
then, pontang the malay class.
Zzzz.
after that go jiajun's hse ther.
then went to yiqing's blog.
yepp.
read and tagged.

2april...

2009-04-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

As i said earlier, today was my 'c' division air rifle competition(:
OMG.. i cant help but laugh at the bollywood thing!
i know someone who's laughing too. STOP IT!
i know it's funny alrites! ;P dunno when can replay tht episode.
i just learnt that;
true friendships exists.
thankks for letting me know that, my fellow bolly wood actor;)

you know i dun like to say things
that make you feel happy;P but i really have to say that you

make a good fren!(:

and wait, this is TOTALLY not an APRIL FOOLS DAY JOKE(:

我是洪思恩（：

2009-04-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

大家好！我是洪思恩（：
hehe：D just playing ard with the chinese character thing。
ZZzz.
hahas!~
talking on MSN with: ANNABEL CHENG! MY belovedTwin;
ADRIAN the overgrowned(: hahas! just joking.
JOSIAH; my bollywood actor!:D
haha...
it's like supperr funny.
i know josiah is laughing alrites;D

MOE shoot!(:

2009-04-02T00:53:00.000-07:00

YAY!
today moe shoot.
annabel: 93.5%
sharmain:90%
vanessa:92.25%
grr, sry ah..
but after i found out abt, XXX and YYY.
i'm just not in the mood.
so i guess i'll be MIA-ing?

OMG;

2009-04-01T18:44:00.000-07:00

omg,
i just went to XXX's blog.
okay.
so I'm a dog ?
yeahs, okay.
even YYY ask her go and buy a bell at the petshop?
FINE.
WOW, i didn't know, she said i was a dog.
why didn't you just tell me? why make me discover it out myself?
WHYWHYWHY?
later i got com, how i shoot now?
just tell mi lahs?
hais, feel like saying so much stuff yeah.
but, only tears come out at this time.
tell you what: our friendship was never a lie.
now i can only think of the first day of sch,
wow, i didn't know you'll ever think this way.
but, anw, i just want to let you know tht,
your friendship was appreciated(:

2 April.

2009-04-01T18:24:00.000-07:00

YAY! today is the MOE shooting com.
very scary though,
i'm like quite scared luhs.
but; it's okay(:
you know, i was wondering if i dun get back my phone who will still be my friend?
at least josiah promised me(: (YAY!)
lols.
i feel so weird.
now a days in temasek like, no one to talk to.
just HI and Bye friends.
Zzz.
dunno whether people want talk to you.
i go talk to people dunno whether they feel annoyed anot.
i my self feel annoyed-.-
Talk to people, then they like so non-responsive (TOWARDS ME ONLY)
dunno whether they trying to ignore me or something.
SIGHS.
aiya, whateverr lahs.
to tired to type alr.

APRIL FOOLS~

2009-04-01T00:53:00.000-07:00

HAHAS~ today is april fools day.
wow. so funny. okay, not really,
today, i feel so weird, like i'm invisible or something.
every one like avoiding me sia.
Ehh, what i do?
or is it just the April fools blues?
WTH.
yesterday, i talked to josiah, we were like talking abt stuff and things and stuff again.
then he talked abt going to the beach.
reminded me of wangzi.
but i pissed josiah off abit though.
josiah asked me if i still liked wangzi,
i was like; NO.
but i really didn't like him anymore.
it's just the memories that just keep getting back at me.
i felt like crying, but i knew tht it was i tht single handedly, destroy everything.
i couldn't blame anyone luhs.
but i think i made the right decision to leave him?
omg; tmr is 'c' division air rifle women!
i'm going to shoot.
veryvery scared!!
but, tms shooting club rocks uh huh.
stupid acs(i)! win the pistol boys.
hahas!

rachel's quiz.

2009-04-01T00:38:00.000-07:00

RACHEL TAGGED ME TO DO THIS QUIZ!~

1.Are you single --yeah
2.Are you happy --erm, okayokay luhs.
3.Are you bored --Yeahh .. very
4.Are you fair --hmmm, okayokay?
5.Are you italian --nope!
6.Are you intelligent --not really
7.Are you honest --yeah,
8.Are you nice --yeah.
9.Are you Irish --NOPE
10.Are you Asian --yes

Things about my love life
1.Have you ever been in love --yeah
2.Do you belive in love at first sight --i guess so
3.Do you currently have a crush --hmmm, not really x;
4.Have you ever been hurt emotionally --YEAH
5.Have you ever broken someone's heart --NO.
6.Have you ever have your heart broken --yeah.
7.Have you ever liked someone but never told them --yeah.
8.Are you afraid of commitment -- a bit.
9.Who was the last person you hugged --Josiah,DUN GET IDEAS.
10.Who was the last person you said i love you to --(...)
This or That
1.Love or lust --Love
2.Hard liqour or beer --hard liquor
3.Cat or Dog --Dog
4.A few best friends or some regular friends --Few best frens
5.Creamy or Crunch --Crunch!
6.Pencil or Pen --Pen
7.Wild night or romantic night --romantic and wild night :p
8.Money or happiness --Happiness
9.Night or day --Night

31march2009

2009-03-30T23:09:00.000-07:00

hello! today is officially 31March2009.
Zzz. yesterday got MC. then today got so many people come ask me if i'm okay.
so caring lehs..
Temasekians OneFive zero nine rocks lahs!
I watched Twilight on the computer.
OMG; so swt cans...
dunno when my edward will come.
HAHAS!~
(this sentence is dedicated to JOSIAH!:) I missed talking to someone.
lol.
i love becky! .. lols.
hahas!

-24March-

2009-03-23T23:46:00.000-07:00

Zzz. now in school library using com.

WTH. all the reserves in the captains ball thing playing.

I was talking to (...) but he got maths test that starts at 3pm.
I went to view my friendster, GOSH.no phone cant upload pictures!!! well, that's me and ruth on the right.

last christmas, my last hair cut.

Talking abt last christmas,

it was like, super funny!~

me and ruth was like escaping from the service, cause at that time , we felt it was like; super boring?

hahas!xD

it was so fun, when we were young.

we're like so innocent then.

then we grow up; boys come into the picture.

GRR! it sucks lah.

supperr irritating.

but also quite fun.

Anyways, always treasure your friendships!

like they say: Boys are whateverr, girlfriends are forever! ;)

Zzz.

2009-03-23T07:34:00.000-07:00

hey all!
very long nvr update.
dun feel like blogging abt church camp yet.
it's like gonna take forever(:
anyways, dunno who go tag on my blog as annonymous.
Then ruth thinks the story i wrote was all true.
when it's only a part of it is.
especially the liking Josiah part.
it's not true.
but, dunno how to bring it across...
Last sunday got scolded by her, cause i sat with Josiah.
she thinks i ditched her for him(?!~)
She posted this on her blog:
"AND ANNABEL!
YOU ARE SO NOT FIT TO BE CALLED MY BEST FRIEND!
YOU DUMPED ME FOR YOUR EYECANDY????????!!!
AND YOU ALWAYS GIVE AWAY THE SECRETS
BOUT CHESTER AND SO ON I HATE YOU
YOU SUCK IDK WHY I WAS YR FRIEND IN P1."
sad right?
but that's life, you're never certain.
(haha! sounds like the oneFive poetry!!)
it's like a train that never stops, keep going through life without pausing.
but, JUST LIVE EACH DAY AND THROW IT BEHIND YOU.
... looks like this sunday, life is going to be diff.

march holidays!!~

2009-03-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

wooHooo~
March holidays finally come liao!
but sadly, it ends after tmr..
how did you people spend your march hols?
i went for my church's family camp, had intensive shooting trainning .
and did a bit of my homework too.
I'll elaborate more on another post. ASAP(:
for now, i wrote this beautiful compo.

Mind you! it's just a story. Not really true.

-A True Friend- By: Annabel Fung 1/5

How do I define a true friend? True friends are like gems that are hard to find.
In my primary school years, being naïve I have always trusted my deepest secrets, dreams, happy and embarrassing moments to friends who appear to be trustworthy. However, most of the times, everyone seems to know everything that I told to only one person… supposing, my “True Friend”.
During my teenage years, Felicia and I seemed like we were inseparable. We shared every thing with each other. Our fantasies, dreams, ambitions, future, and anything under the sun… one incident almost changed it all.
I used to fancy this guy in my secondary years. He was Josiah. Josiah was a very special person. He had the greatest personality. I met him through the school choir. It almost seemed to me that I could talk to him forever. That face of his together with his humor and personality was enough to mesmerize a girl like me into his world. I never told anyone about the massive crush that I had on him… even Felicia.
But it did not take long for her to realize that because, of how I neglected during the week when our school sent us to Desaru for an immersion trip. Josiah, Felicia and I stayed in the same campus. I introduced him to her. We started to become friends since then. I started to want to do everything with Josiah… from eating to playing and talking. We just enjoyed the moments we had together. Nothing seems to be able to come between us. Everything around us became invisible.
Although I knew talking to Josiah was everything I wanted to do, I also knew that Felicia existed. I thought I could handle two good friends at the same time, but it was not long till I realized I was wrong. Felicia started to grow cold towards me at times and even said mean things to me at some point. I thought it was just one of her mood swings or she just wanted to get angry with me for some stupid reason. It was not the first time, and I had enough.
When I was alone with Felicia in our room, she asked me if I liked Josiah. I denied, and felt kind of scared also because I did not want her to tell Josiah. This was because; I do not want my friendship with Josiah to be strained. With that, Felicia decided to give me a benefit of doubt.
The happy moments were not long lived, they finally came to an end when my teacher informed me and Felicia that we needed to rush back to attend to some curriculum matters. Felicia also told me that she wanted to tell me some things on the bus. I agreed to listen to her, because I also wanted to find out why she has been giving me the silent treatments lately.
Two days had pass and finally the day to go home arrived. During the bus ride home, Felicia told me that she wanted to speak to me. She started off with telling me not to get angry at what she was about to tell me. She just wanted to tell me how she felt.
Firstly, she thinks that I always copy what she wears, buys and use. For example when she cuts her fringe, my aunty happened to cut the same fringe for me. When she wears a certain pattern of shoes, my mother happens to buy the same pair for me. I told her it was all a matter of coincidence, but she will just remark sarcastically,” Oh really? Wow, what a coincidence!”
She went on to tell me about how I have been “Josiah this” and “Josiah that”, she did not really like me dragging Josiah in into every thing that I did. She also thinks that if I liked Josiah, I should just admit it. She brought up the point that she realized that after Josiah came into the picture, I was not close to her anymore. I did everything and told everything to him. When she told me that, I felt devastated. I never meant for her to feel this way. What broke my heart even more was that, our friendship was about to be at risk and I could not find any explanation to prove it.
Only tears came out. I felt so helpless. All I could do was to apologize and start crying. She also told me that it was okay if she felt left out, but what about Josiah’s friends? He ditched them to do things with us. Even if they seemed to agree to let him do things with us, they will feel neglected too.
I started to realize the mess I’ve created. I knew I could not do anything, but just sit there on my sit and cry. Later, when both of us had calmed down, she told me that she forgave me. That trip was a very valuable and expensive lesson that I will remember for a long time.
But for now, I’ll just continue to daydream about Josiah!

evening under the stars!~

2009-03-12T20:01:00.000-07:00

firstly! so sry...
so long nvr update blog!!
yesterday got evening under the starrs!!!
wooHOO~
sch ended at abt, 1.30
rehersal was at 2.30...
GRR. it was so freaking fustrating.
but that's the mode that was suppose to be created,
so thr;
reherse and all alr,
kuven they all go put make up.
bridgette was like: they use my lipstick so kong bu.
then me and alynna was lyk: HAHA!!
i was like suffering from stage fright and at the same time: PRESSURE!!
long time never feel stressed and presurized le..
i'm the literature rap marhs~
but it's kind of fun.
it was getting better lah.

until i saw...
josephdimmck! ahahahs!
i felt like hiding in a hole(!)
but i was like :who cares...
all went well.
not so, actually....
ms. siti was quite disapointed though.
but ,
EVENING UNDER THE STARS ROCKS!!!

training muscles...

2009-02-28T04:17:00.000-08:00

today got shooting training,

i shot a 5-cent size hole . ten shots.

YAY~

me and the girls do jogging alr,

then go gym complete PT(physical training)

so fun!!!

happy birthday bryant!~

2009-02-28T04:11:00.000-08:00

i went to bryant's birthday today.

it was kind of fun lah...

but tristan,darryl,bryant,aloysious and clement,

THEY MADE ME FEEL SOOoO stupid?

wth.

now i feel really dumb.

how did i even get into temasek??

lols.

i just realised a few facts:

- i suck at audition.,

- ALoysious is in temasek.,

-Bryant's baby photo is adorable~

- lastly, i'm dumb.

hahas.

fish&co!

2009-02-25T06:33:00.000-08:00

last saturday went to FISH&CO. wif my brothers and daddy!~

after my shooting practise of cos.

then went to ACS(primary) to fetch my bro.

we then go to airport , decided to eat FISH&CO.

nicenice!~ gosh. cos my dad say must pamper ourselves during weekends marhhs~

then there was tis super DUPER big ice-blended yellow drink.

WOOHOOS~

marina barrage!(:

2009-02-25T05:28:00.000-08:00

today, i went to marina barrage wif my beloved oneFive!

hahas!~

went to bubble tea shop wif chin hoe , ben and yiqing.

then go back loe ....

saw josephDimmick..

OMG.

anyways, went to marina barrage...

come back le,

talk to YeeYong,Janus,Hugo and jiajun. sharmain too.

l8r, i tink prudence saw le, maybe go kaopei to everyone ntht i go flirt or wteverr.

OH PUH-lease! WHO BLOODY HELL CARES??

....

2009-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

WANGZI.... I'm sry how i always made you feel like you dun exist. But I'm always aware of your presence. Just that sometime's I just dunno where to find that courage to speak to you ><><.... rmb you said you'll nvr abandon me, you'll nvr leave me. And most of all, you'll nvr stop loving me.Rmb? I still Rmb. Franlky speaking, i dun expect you to rmb.but that's alright, as long as we can still be frens/. thats enough(:

gosh. just finished shooting practise.this sucks. my parents quarrel again.
Skye told me joseph dimmick likes her..
WTH.

2009-02-20T00:07:00.000-08:00

he took her heart, and practically smashed it against the wall.
it broke into pieces.
but she'll still love him.
with all of it.
it doesn't matter if he responds.
she doesn't expect him to.
she just wants him to be her fren.
she hopes it's not over.

josephDimmick

2009-02-20T00:04:00.000-08:00

he's a sec three-er in temasek(:
lols. my language, sec three-er.
in 3/5. perhaps not handsome in your eyes. but his heart strikes me.
he started ignoring ANNABEL FUNG of 1/5 since her sim card was confiscated.
it's a sad but only very true a fact.
he's an american and singaporean.
CHARMING!~ hahas xD
it's all overr.
everything's overr-

sec one resilience camp

2009-02-19T23:56:00.000-08:00

there's so much to sy abt this!~
OMG xD i almost had the time of my life!
hahas.
got to know my classmates better.
Jiajun keeps scarying me alrites. then the other boys also. he good. HE GOOD.
The instructor also join in. keep "blehhing" at me...
then our grp called BLEHH :P hahas!~
i tried rock climbbing... i almost reach the top! one of the best i guess :/
WTF. ariel said sharmain cant do obstacles. i mean high elements...
of cos i talked back.
during camp i also found out important my phone is to me...
hahas~ josephDmmick asked for my number. (actually, his fren helped him asked.)

GUILTY:
I REJECTED THE LOVE OF MY LIFE- 我的王子
a very bad mistake.

valentine's day 2009

2009-02-19T23:49:00.001-08:00

this year, celebrated valentine's day in a mixed sch. my lovely temasek secondary!(:
RAWRS. i received a lollipop! from joey. YIQIng was like: EEWH-joey tht bitch.
hahas xD lots of sweets.
(joseph dimmick nvr give me present....)
actually, i think he wans to have nothing to do with me. so be it.
fcuk it. SO BE IT.
like so easy like that.
i think prudence they all sickk of my JosephDimmick nonsense le.
I"M so sry yiqing! make your bill burst.
i just hoped for a miracle..that he'll reply.
sry loadds!~

20th feb 2009

2009-02-19T23:37:00.000-08:00

OMG. I"m like in temasek sch library using com.
so many things happen.
gosh. in the morning, the MS. AMalina teacher caught me for short skirt ><
i was like, WTH?
she want me to take out the alteration sia! ....
then give me the warning letter . need parent signature. freakk its. then, we had art. teacher say i talked too much ask me move my table and chair to the corner.
during maths, i was like, thinking abt joseph dimmick!!! omg. but, it's all over. i guess.
this is so depressing. lols hahas xD
then got this chinese compo competition thing.
i so dunno how to write. only wan the cca points :X
wow. what a wonderful day.

farmmart!

2009-02-13T07:36:00.000-08:00

iwent to farmmart(: wif my family.
the goats so cute! xD
i saw ALOT of bullfrogs.
hahas!

hayden's first birthday!~

2009-02-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

i attended my baby cousin's first birthday!(: he so freaking cute can? xD

i played DJmax too... but i sucked at it ><

A NN A B E L [:

update fail. :(

saddddddddddddddd.

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>._.

VALENTINE"S EVE.

(:

updateeee.

blahblahhh.

not meant too.

updatezxc.

Freed,

Replayy.

jellyszxc-inc

just a word.

-191109.

..........................

AWESOMEEE.

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((:

Already gone,

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me plus you.

HALLOWEEN. ((:

♥-

Addicted,

saturday, 31october2009.

Define perfect,

Monday, 26th october 2009.

sunday, 25th october 2009.

starting of,

im back,

19th september2009

040709!<3

13th birthday eve;♥

NEOPRINTS!<33 ahPAT.

NEOPRINTS!<33 girlf.

SHOOTING!(:

setia.

where did i stop,

25thMay, sports challenge.

25thMay2009

24thMay2009;

hypocrites luhh.

save you.

latelate!

he's gone;

;Edited/

inspirations.

Love,

i'm really sry alrights;

get out,

................................

ilove my brothers!

without him;

oral

LoveConcierge

xlate pics

100th post(:

it's alrite.

......100th post coming up!

At the rooftop. best girlf.

misses! 30th april.

22 April2009

EasterMusicale(: cum lunch.

20th April 2009

I'm backk to update!(:

latelate):

Miss!!!

4april

Talk to me? start of losing our friendship?

the break up message.

>yiqing

-3april. Zzzz.

2april...

我是洪思恩（：

MOE shoot!(:

OMG;

2 April.

APRIL FOOLS~